Can you hear me?
Yes you, I see you there.
Can you hear me, through this smile.
Silently I’m screaming.
Begging for someone to hear me and comfort me.
Can you see me?
These tear filled eyes.
Trying to find someone who will look into them.
Not at them, into them.
Someone who will see me, not these glazed over tear stained windows.
Can you feel me?
This spiky exterior.
It’s just a shield, made from years of work and pain.
I’m actually soft inside, but I will keep up this shield.
I’m waiting…
For someone to hold me anyway.
Can you reach me?
I may seem distant.
Really I’m quite close.
Waiting until someone takes the time to grab my hand.
Bring me with them.
I don’t care where.
Let’s go.
I am absolutely depressed by the site called Facebook. So I bid it farewell. It is weird not hopping on facebook to stalk others….. Am I creep?
Is it bad that I don’t want to wait? A mission isn’t my path right now, I haven’t met the one, so I’m stuck waiting… It feels cruel. I’ve never liked waiting. Someone wise (Neal A. Maxwell) once said, “Faith in God includes faith in God’s timing.” Grr. Guess I better have more faith, and patience.
One of my favorite times of the year are conference!
With April Conference only a few weeks away, I cannot wait!
I love the opportunity to hear my church leaders speak!
Life never turns out how we planned. That is an understatement. If someone had told me a few years ago that I would be where I am… I would have laughed at them. But guess what, I am here. And have no where to go but to the future. I get to help my boy get back out on his mission. It may not be easy. Frankly, the disapproving looks don’t help. But we’re having the time of our lives. Just ask anyone, this is the best time of our lives. So enjoy it. Especially with someone you care about.
So things seem to simply be going my way. I got into my level III of my program and am on track to graduate next spring. Then I found out I get a raise at my summer job. Plus a week of finishing to do lists, homework, and projects. Not to mention boy time. I’m going to miss him while he’s gone on his mission. It’ll be worth it and go fast. :)
I finally got life a little bit. I am going to live in some of the nicest housing next fall. Then I will move back home to do my student teaching. Then after a year of teaching, I will buy my first house. My mom is all for the plan. :)
I finally get it. I’m on the right path. I am doing what I need to. I will have a lot of things taken care of before I even get married. I am grateful for the path I was given. Who knows, maybe my whole life might be on this straight path.
I went home for my few days off. I am enjoying my time to work on my projects. Now I’m well on my way to having them done. Then I got my homework done.
Family + boyfriend + productivity= happiness
So not a very flattering name… but I decided to attack the mold in my apartment. I used straight vinegar, an idea I got from a website ( http://blackmold.awardspace.com/kill-remove-mold.html ). I pretty much got rid of all the mold. It did take a while for the smell to dissipate. I am trying to spread the good news. Vinegar = no mold!!!